Change and change again.

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Mum, why do you have so many notebooks and diaries?

I am home from travelling and back at my lovely house La Gaia in Spain. I look around and feel grateful for my surroundings, but we are clearing the loft and I only have two months to sort all my junk before I am off again.

La Gaia, Jalon Valley, Costa Blanca.

“What do you mean? I reply, “And STOP!, please do not read them”.

I look down at the boxes and they are full of half written notebooks and I know what will be in most of them. They will be full of lists, goals and targets and notes to myself about how to achieve them, Then there are books of poetry, my innermost thoughts of trials and tribulations and affirmations. Writing is good for the soul. I have always believed that if you write it down, it may just happen. So why do I panic as my kids pick them up? I realise I am scared that if they peak inside and read my lists, they will maybe laugh at some of my failures, You know, the ones that say lose a stone by Xmas and then go and climb Mount Everest. Did I actually write that down? Probably. Losing a stone was just as hard for me as climbing Mount Everest. In all my diaries I would have written a list on the 1st of January, my resolutions for that year and as the years go by I see that Mount Everest has turned into Machu Picchu..

The kids move on to their boxes of school photos and old science books and show no interest thankfully, When they leave to make more cups of tea and disappear, they always do when I am in clear out mode, I flick through some of my notebooks. There I flick through old jotted down ditties of instructions to myself. I am surprised about how much I had actually achieved and how far I have come in the past twenty years.

It may just be something small but those small achievements lead to bigger things, I may not have climbed Mount Everest but I did give up smoking, I may not have lost that stone by Xmas but I did move to France and discover great food. There was loads on that list that I can now cross off.

keep repeating yourself

If you keep writing it down on your list one day you will do it. The time has to be right for you. Just never stop putting it down on your list because it is what you want. There is no such thing as failed attempts, not in my diaries.

So I am going to share with you one of my affirmations. I look back in my diary. It is the 4th January 2005 and at the top of the page I have written:-

Creative ideas and inspiration are coming to me everyday.

I wrote this at the top of my page every day for one week and made a list of things to attract that creativity to me. Here is my list.

  1. Pick up a paintbrush and put some colour into the world.
  2. creating more love around you can only be a good thing.
  3. Ideas for my book keep coming, there are so many.
  4. My house will look fantastic when I use the ideas in my head.
  5. Keep writing and beautiful words will come.
  6. The fog in my brain just makes me want to do nothing. Ask it nicely to leave me alone.
  7. I want to be easy going, fun and passionate, surround myself with love and not have to walk on egg shells or be scared of upsetting people.

I feel I have achieved all of those points. Affirmations are a fantastic way to make lists. We are starting a 16 day wellness challenge next week and if you follow my blog I will share my list with you. Give it a try if you like or make some of your own. There will be a different one every four days.

Love it when my kids are at home helping me, Such great bonding time haha. My daughter has cleared off to Ibiza with her friend but I am still making lists.

I have now started looking back over the list at the things I never did, Maybe it is time to give myself a kick up the bum….Those Spanish lessons never lasted. It is never too late is it? Just a thought, I could find a Spanish family to stay with or maybe a Spanish Man to bring into my life, Now you never know but it could be worth writing that on my list.

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Hiya, I am Lauren, a lifestyle traveller, writer and health Nerd. Due to lockdown I decided to get on with writing my blog and catching up with friends new and old. I believe we are one world that for most of us wants to promote peace and goodwill to each other, wherever you are in the world I wish you well. I hope we connect and share our stories.

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